Wrestling With Reality.

So, I didn’t make nutritious food choices today, and as the day came to a close, I had a choice.  I could do nothing and end the day having consumed more calories than I burned off, or head to the gym.  I headed to the gym and ended up burning 699 calories in 105 minutes of cardio on the treadmill!  This is a true testament to how much I am changing. But truth be told, if I hadn’t eaten a half cup of M&M’s and those potato wedges from Walmart (one of my biggest weaknesses) I would have burned off even more calories than I did.  As you know from my previous blogs, I have really bad days where I make super poor choices, but today instead of sabotage, I decided to put in the work. 

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My arch nemesis is making good food choices.  That is why it was essential that tonight my book of choice be Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst. I committed to working through this book in an online Bible study and I am so glad I did, because it is exactly what I need to be studying. Right out of the gate she hit me between the eyes,

“God never intended for us to want anything more than we want Him” 

(Terkeurst, 2010, 21)

Well, for pity sake, why does she have to be so brutal?  “I relied on food more than I craved God. Food was my comfort,” she conceded. “Food was my reward. Food was my joy. Food was what I turned to in times of stress, sadness, and even in times of happiness. And I hated admitting that. I felt stupid admitting that. I felt like such a spiritual failure” (Terkeurst, 2010, 21).  I felt like somehow she was my long lost twin, but since I already have a twin, she must be our long lost triplet!  She was reading my mind.

She prattled on about having a “pretty garden.” She admitted she wasn’t a gardener, nor did she know much about it, but she longed to have a fabulous garden like her neighbor. (2010) “I want the flowers but not the work,” she confessed. “Isn’t that the way it is with many things in life–we want the results but have no desire to put in the work required” (2010)  Whoa, was she ever speaking to me?  I have wrestled with this reality the majority of my life, but thankfully, I can slowly feel my attitude changing.  What a joy!  But I am intelligent enough to know that maintaining a healthy life-style will involve “work” and “sacrifice” and it will be a life-long battle. 

My favorite quotes from “weading” a few more chapters in Made to Crave by Lysa Terkeurst were as follows. May her words bring joy, encouragement and motivation to you this night:

“Part of me was seriously ready to throw in the towel, head to the boxed brownie aisle of the grocery store, and ask if anyone knew how to hook up an IV line between me and Betty Crocker” (Terkeurst, 2010, 32).

“When what is lacking in life goes from being an annoyance to an anxiety we run the risk of compromising in ways we never thought we would” (Terkeurst, 2010, 32).

“When we determine to get healthy, we will have to give up certain things and change our habits. Doing this can make us feel anxious. That’s why we must have friends to help us remember that what we’re giving up in the short term will help us get what we really want in the long term” (Terkeurst, 2010, 32).

“If it is not part of our plan, we don’t put it in our mouths” (Terkeurst, 2010, 34)

“That I made the choice to go back to my brokenness and set back all that I’ve attained. That’s a high price for a brownie. Yes, accountability is crucial” (Terkeurst, 2010, 35)

In closing, an essential piece to the “maintaining a healthy lifestyle” puzzle is believing we are valuable.  My prayer tonight would be that you begin to grasp how valuable you are.

Luke 12:6-7 – “Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? And not one of them is forgotten before God. Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows.”

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